Jessica Bean

And it was great. I loved watching Jeff Hardy Kick Edges ass from the stands.

Its so much better seeing them live in person then having to watch it at home on your tv screen.

I hope to go to wrestle mania, hopefully that will happen. =D

(OMGZ Im so excited about Rammsteins New album and Worldwide Tour. When They hit the states, I'll be at their show, best believe. And Hopefully I wont forget my camera. I forgot to take it to Wrestleing last night so I couldent get pictures for my brother(although he went..he wanted something more then pictures of the tickets...)He was so mad at me. Oh well. =/
If we go to Wrestle Mania I wont forget to take the cam. =P
HOPEFULLY!
Now im off to watch my Rammstein dvds!)
xo

And heres my list of the stuff I want but im not going to get. haha. =P

1. Canon EOS Digital Rebel.

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And yeah..I also want Brian Haner Jr., Antti, Ville Valo, All of CB, NGT....oh! And Ben Barnes. ok im done. haha.

xo

 

And I likey.

It has a thing where I can put all my charms, this one does.

Unlike my other stupid blackberry.

=P

xo

I dont drink..but im drinking!!! Cause I love you guys and cheers!
♥♥♥!!!
xoxoxoxoJessicaBean

Here she says she's;
Here I am a peach.
Surrounded by of many things,
She's kept inside on broken wings.
But I, She says, I am no more.
This world, its rotten to the core.
Her love once walked, yet loves' unfree.
He will come to rescue thee.
So she's placed safely out of reach.
The safest place inside my peach.
©JessicaBean

I made this Panda case for my ipod nano..which I would not of even gotten the idea if I hadent of stopped by xobabykittyxo's page and read her blog entry on I-Phone Cozy's where it showed a frog ipod case like the one above. that blog entry is here: I-Phone Cozy
so all my thanks to her and her blog entry for the idea to even make this..and to everyone else who reads this: I hope you like!!! haha. =P

For my wedding im thinking of having a 1920's themed wedding and everyone is to dress like 1920's flappers.

The vows will take place on a stage outside. The priest, groom, and I(the bride, dur)will be the only ones on the stage. The brides maids and grooms men will stand on ither side infront of the stage. they will not be standing on the stage. The guests will be seated infront of the stage.

We will have three or four mics on stage. The old 20's brodcasting mics.

All photos will be black and white.

The vehicle we leave in will be a 1920's chevy.

It will have a train of cans tied behind it dragging the ground. the back of the car will say "Just married" (It wont be written on the window.)

As we are driving away I want a shot of me and the groom in the back window. We will turn around, smile, and wave.

Theres my dream wedding. What is yours or if you have had one already what was it like?

xo

Why do I always end up with the wrong guy? I have always thought that, "everything happens for a reason" But whenever I stop and think about it, it all just seems like total bullshit. I used to date a guy named Chris G. I loved him. I really did. He never knew and he never will. I still dream about him almost every night. He wont escape my thoughts. Though, I regret nothing, I'll always love him. "Sometimes I wake up crying at night."
"In my dreams you lean in close behind me. In my dreams you still whisper "I love you" in my ear. Like you always did. Like you always will." -Jessica Bean
"So your gone and im haunted and I bet you are just fine."
"Its too late to make it right, probably wouldent if I could!"
"Cause im looking at you through the glass, dont know how much time has passed, but all I know is that it seems like forever and forever seems so long, sitting all alone inside my head."
Dear God, Please remind him how I feel or how I felt.
Dear Chris G., I hope you think of me.
"I watched you die, In your sleep, I was to Numb for you, to lean on me, you never saw me, now im crying in the middle of the night for that same damn thing."

So as you know(or dont know)I will be attending the "Miss. Pageant" July 27-28.

Wish me luck!

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoJessicaBeanxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

I went to see Narnia last night with Jamie. I just wantedto say Congrats to Ben Barnes! He did an amazing job!

♥

xo

My name is Jessica Bean. When I was a little girl I was a ballerina. My first time on a big stage I was two years old. STAGE FRIGHT. I told papa I would not let him down again, and I wont. I then wanted to be an actress. I would give up anything to become an actress, but there was a problem. I WAS SHY. So I got into Theatre Arts when I was in school. Its really not the same so I dident remain in that long. I decided to overcome my shyness on my own. So as I knew I only had the problem when the spotlight was on me. When I was at a park where there were kids, I could go up and chat, no problem. Then I started researching stuff about Actor/Actress starting off and how to get rid of stage fright, because I felt shure that not everone in show buisness couldent be shy. Come to find out, I was right. Most actor/actresses can hide their personality within a personality which is not their own. When you step into character you become another person and while you are acting like someone else you tend to forget your own personality at that moment. I found out about "THE GREEN ROOM" and how the color green is supposed to calm you, relieve stress, and relax you before the show. Thats where they sit all the big stars before they call them out infront of camera for an interview. So green became my favorite color, now you know why. Papa died in 2000 when I was only 11. He left me with a dream, goal, and promice to fulfil. I wont forget. Ive decided for a long time now, since probably before his death, that I would keep "Bean" as my last name even if I did marry. I would at least keep it until I fulfilled my goals to him. It just makes it more true and gives it more respectful meaning if I have my own last name which was his last name also. Its like my life is a brick wall. Just one brick is missing. Somewhere theres a hole. When I find it and place my brick in, the wall will be complete. -Jessica Bean
There used to be a girl named Ellie who lived near me and I think this is kind of a funny story so im going to say.I guess she always thought I was going to copy her or that I already was or something. How I dont know, because I do whatever the fuck I want not careing what the world thinks. Anyways, her best friend Lorri Heath nicknamed Ellie "Bean". Well here on my myspace I used to write "Bean"(MY LAST NAME!)as captions under all my pictures. Well she commented a picture at some point and asked why I was writing "Bean" under all my pictures. She told me that was a little wierd. She said, "Dont you know thats my nickname?" I wrote her back and said, "Dont you know thats my last name?" -Jessica Bean
"You dont Know me. You wont ever know me. My whole life is an act of me trying to find out who I am." -J.B.
"Dreamers are the ones who have something to live for, because dreamers are the ones with something to fulfil." -J.B.
"Life is like a brick wall. Once you find the empty space, its complete." -J.B.
"Whatever it is your trying to accomplish is only complicated if you make it complicated." -J.B.
"You cant wait for your dreams to find you. You have to find your dreams." -J.B.
"Never compare someone to another, because no one is the same." -J.B.
"I dont have best friends or close friends. I just concider everyone my friend." -J.B.
"I trust everyone until given a reason not to." -J.B.
"Im nothing that you want or exspect me to be." -J.B.
"I treat people how I exspect people to treat me. THE SAME AS EVERYONE ELSE." -J.B.


Nature's first green is gold, Her hardest hue to hold. Her early leaf's a flower; But only so an hour. Then leaf subsides to leaf. So Eden sank to grief, So dawn goes down to day. Nothing gold can stay.
Poem By: Robert Frost

©Jessica Bean

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If you havent seen it, go rent it.(or buy it!!!)
It is one of the best movies that "I" have seen in about two years.

xoxo

.BLACK.

.Giving it deep thought though.

 

I had a thought come to mind about what to dye my hair if I was going to dye it again. If I dont dye it black..and I decide to dye it another color then pink, It will be a light purple that fades out into white...and I gave it thought and I know that my roots are going to grow in and its going to be dark on the top so I thought that maybe after that...when my roots grow in and all then ill put black over the top and streak it down the sides some...not real wide streaks but real thin ones..I dont know though, it was just a thought. have a great day everyone!

xoxo

[Letter]

Im not going down, You'll never bring me down.
Im here and not noticeing, noticing what I havent found.
You havent found, something of what you've been searching out.
And I havent been held since July of last year.

And I rode, I rode away from it all.
Opening a letter that we wrote together long ago.
And reaching out, and let the wind take you away from me.
Along an open road, flys a letter written from you to me.

Forget, forget it all in one instant.
never takeing back what time had made us, breaking free while trying to fix us.
I cant be alone with you, your promises arent staying true.
Your leaving all your life behind and its killing me, killing me, I wont deny this!

And I rode, I rode away from it all.
Opening a letter that we wrote together long ago.
And reaching out, and let the wind take you away from me.
Along an open road, flys a letter written from you to me.

Wrapped up in this memory, so hard to let you go.
Set me free! I fully see now, what everything and everyone can
Hide! You hide from what you dont believe, when really you do, really you do, you know you believe.

Dont let this time take us, dont do this you dont mean it.....mean it....I would like for you to mean it.

And I rode, I rode away from it all.
Opening a letter that we wrote together long ago.
And reaching out, and let the wind take you away from me.
Along an open road, flys a letter written from you to me.

Along an open road, flys a letter written from you to me...

I guess words hurt worse when written on paper.
Im going to say this now. Im going to stop feeling. Im not heartless but words no longer hurt me because im too numb for that. Your lies go through one ear and out the other. your compliments will remain in my life forever. Your negative comments will never touch me, im stronger then that. Ill never let anyone bring me down. I could really care less what you think or have to say about me. Im probably the nicest person you will ever meet. You dont have to impress me so I will like you more. If you talk to me then I concider you as a friend, I will always look at you all as equals. I trust everyone unless given a reason not to. I am myself and myself only. I regret nothing, ive learned something from all of my mistakes. Stay beautiful!
xoxo

Whats yours?

xoxo

1) Ruffle Dress
2) Pink Bow tie Purse
3) Betsey Johnson Heels
4) Betsey Johnson Heels with bow tie
5) Steve Madden black suede boot flats
6) Black Skinny Jeans
7) Thigh High Socks
8) metallic pink nike air force 1
Happy holidays everyone! I hope you all get what you wished for, and much more. Stay safe! xoxo

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